I am still so thankful to now have a regular schedule. I’m definitely still homesick, and I definitely still miss my family and friends at home. I still feel some pressure from the people who live here to decide to stay here in Germany for grad school, but I’ve already decided that when this year is up, I do not want to live somewhere where there is an international border between my family and me.
But for this year, I’m still, of course, dealing with homesickness. I’ve heard it gets better after a few months. And now that classes are started, I actually have things to do to keep my mind occupied. I have notes to study, practice problems to work on, paperwork to collect and photocopy for my student visa interview next week, and tons of other little administrative things to do.
In addition, I’m working on figuring out how to take the GRE, a test I’ll have to take in order to apply for grad school in the USA. But to take the GRE internationally with accommodations for diabetes still involves sending a bunch of paperwork to New Jersey with a doctor’s note. Sorting out those details, on top of my classes, language learning, and the research I’m doing to decide which grad schools to apply to is definitely keeping me busy.
I’m stressed from all the to-do lists covering my desk and filling my mind, and of course more stressed nervous that I may forget to add some little important thing to those lists. But I’m staying connected to home through chat and email, and I’m understanding my lectures a tiny bit more each day, and I’m getting more accustomed to life as a student here in general. I’m still not fully adjusted, and at the moment, the day I will be fully used to life here seems very far away. And the day I go home again to stay there seems even further away.
But those days will come, and in the meantime, I’m making progress. Slowly but surely.