Homesickness has hit me pretty hard this week. I keep having little flashbacks to places I’ve been in the past. Driving down Main Street in Blacksburg, VA to get to church at Virginia Tech, or of my parents’ house, or of the beach in Wilmington. Even strangely specific places, such as particular grocery stores and the various Wal-Marts and Targets I’ve been to.
I’m not sure why I keep thinking of all these things, but in some ways, I’m thinking my mind just wants to know that all the stuff I remember is still there. That I’m not crazy and reminiscing about imaginary places. Surrounded by a foreign country that I’m only half-used to and only being able to contact family members through email and video chat is still jarring. Everything I was used to at home has not been nearby for two-and-a-half months now, and it feels so far away!
Things will be fine after a while, I’m sure, and since I’m only here for a year, it won’t be too many months before I can go to all those familiar places back home again whenever I want. For now, I need to get out of this rut and enjoy the advantages of Germany. So my plan to take steps to make the most of my time here:
– Come up with a list of books I want to buy while I am in Germany, since getting German books in America is both difficult and expensive. And since I like to read.
– Buy a few movies or TV shows on German iTunes. (I already have a 25€ iTunes gift card ready to go.)
– Research the places I want to visit while I’m in Europe. I have a map on my wall with several cities I’d like to visit already marked.
But amongst studying for classes, taking exams (first one is in December!), grocery shopping, applying for grad school, being involved with Campus für Christus, volunteering in the robotics lab, and blogging–with all this stuff to do, as well as exploring what Germany has to offer, how do I have time to be homesick?
I’m honestly not sure. But I do know this: being homesick means that home is worth missing. I’ll get there eventually. I just need to enjoy where I am now.